Assalammualaikum...

I wish I could post this in my blog but I just can't.

I don't want some people to read about what I'm about to post.

I need to wake up!!! Here I am! Waking up myself!!

Aku sedihhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

'Coz I did what I hate!

Buat cigu ku marah :s

Let me start from the beginning.

My tutor said that she could see that I am capable to do very well last year.

But this year, I've been giving my very worst effort for every test, classworks, homeworks and assessment.

She really is putting hopes on me to score better and high grade for this upcoming June exam.

Today, I think she let out all what she wanted to say to me before.

And I have been always came out with excuses.

She has been trying her best to get the solutions for me.

She gave me tips to study well and so on.

But I didn't do anything!

I am so STUPID for not listening to her.

 My marks are all getting lower and lower.

She knows that I can do better but I've done nothing to make her feel that I'll be able to score better grade.

Babal jua eh aku ani!

I cried today 'coz I seriously don't like making my teachers to get upset with me.

I disappoint her.

And then one more thing...

I can feel there's no support from my family.

I just want them to know how I feel.

This Sixth Form thing is totally harder than high or primary school.

All they know is just to judge me when I got the bad result.

When I scored well?? They don't care.

Bukan pulang ku kan minta puji.

I'm just tired of everything. I need a break and this is why I wanna join the trip to Belalong.

When I wanna talk about this with someone, I do not expect anything from them but I want them to cry with me and feel what I feel.

Don't just say sabar and sabar.

I know sabar is important.

But sometimes when we have someone to cry with, it will make us feel better.

Macam they can feel us, our pressure and understand our situation.

I seriously feel bad and guilty to my teacher.

And so, starting by tomorrow, I'll not be with my laptop.

May be for some time (when I need to be with it, esp for assignments and photos)

And I'm gonna show my mama my result from last years assessment til the latest one.

I need their cooperation.

To play their roles and I'll do mine seriously.

As my apology, I will score better grade this time!

My assessment starts on Saturday i.e Acc and followed by other subjects.

We'll be having PTM.

I am so sure my teachers gonna complain about me.

:'(

Before it gets worst, I shall make changes for good.

Okay, that's just it.

Thanks for reading my stupid mistakes and regrets and story.

How I miss oovoo.

Kalau ada masih, we can cry together, laugh together, sing together and eat and drink together.

I love you, my oovoo partners!

Loads of love with tonnes of pressure on me,

Adell@Popo